August 18, 2014 (11:31AM)
This is pretty much my life here: bored at work. Anyways, lately, I have been meeting up with a lot of friends, usually people who want to hang out before I head out to Japan. I do not like to drive, so I want to especially thank the people who drove to see me from like San Bernardino and Garden Grove and Rowland just to name a few. I love meeting up with my friends and catching up. I am the type of person who likes to randomly text people or facebook message them, usually because I get bored easily, but because I feel that I am the type of person who will actively try to maintain a friendship. Anyways, when I hang out with people I usually get asked the same questions. A lot of times, I find myself answering them with I do not know. The future is so uncertain, and in all honesty, I have no clue what I want to do. How long will I be staying in Japan… well the contract is about a year long. If I like it, maybe I will try another year. If I do not, then I will come home. If I want to just come home faster, that might happen too. What are my plans after I come back? I definitely plan to come back, but the me right now has no goals. That is weird to say since I have always felt like a pretty goal driven person, but not right now. I have no dreams or aspirations. Is that weird? Well, I think it is okay to take it day by day/one step at a time for now. Will I go to graduate school? I know this is something I talk about. I do want to further my studies, but that really depends on where I will be in the future. Will I get caught up in something in Japan or will I be caught up with something here back home? Additionally, I need to look at my financial situation. On top of that, I need to think how will going to graduate school benefit me with what I want to do. However, first, I need to figure out what I want to do. So, in truth, I cannot really plan anything because I have nothing to plan. I might possibly start figuring things about while I am in Japan, but I do not know. My mother worries because she sees Japan as a detour from a stable path, and truthfully, that is exactly what it is. However, this detour feels right. If I do not do these uncertain things now, when will there be another time. I have not started packing, but who starts packing this earlier? :) I still have a party/gathering to plan, and I still have work and friends to meet up with. Yup, that is my life right now.